i'm sensitive, who doesn't know that.

cry cry cry.

tears tears tears.

all because of that sentence you said.

seriously made me stun for a minute, staring into mid air.

i didn't think you'd give up on me.

but you did.

it's alright.

i suffer.

you don't have to stop me from suffering.

my fault.

to all cutters out there, agree with me ?

that physical pain, is much much more easily tolerated then emotional pain.

been awhile since i last did things like this.

a very very long while.

but now.

everything's starting again.

hmmm.

right arm.

full of cuts.

hurts.

but it's better than a heart that keep getting hurt.

distractions are needed sometimes.

my heart can't take any more.

blogging won't help that much either.

since nothing is changing.

i know, cutting won't help too.

but i feel better.

i feel hurt physically,

so the emotional hurt is not felt, for the time being.

only for the time being.

maybe i'm delaying the pain,

i don't know.

what if i am ?

i can't take anything harsh now.

you want to see me crash and break ?

say something hurtful straight in my face.

i will so foolish things for you.

sigh.

wonderful right ?

i never thought it's be like this.

never in my life.

maybe, i really shouldn't be here.

shouldn't be anywhere.

not in famiree.

not in Students' Union.

not anywhere.

argh.

fuck everything.

cutting ftw.

i didn't say this to you when we separated, i'm sorry.