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one of the best days of my life.
wtf is wrong with you ? is this yours, or also mine ? so many shit other people do for you, then now you taking all the credit ? i know i did less than you. much much lesser. but now you're giving the impression that i'm doing nothing, and it's because i don't want to do anything. you don't tell me anything. how the fuck do i know that there's something for me to do ? nb. i can't care less about you anymore. you and your precious stuff. all the best for your studies man.
i want to study. i seldom have mood to study. was going to start. then must go do other things. great. AFA ica next week. how the shit am i going to pass accounting when i fucking suck at it and i cannot study. i'm just a fucking guy with a GPA of 2.5. i need to study. i really fucking need to study. is this more important than my studies ?
i doubted you. i'm sorry.
you. i don't want to tell you straight. going to type it all here. you'll read, and not mention it to me. just like my words. say to you, nothing changes. so might as well i just say it. everytime saying no. just like monopoly deal. you know everytime you say no, my hearts shatters ? it doesn't just break. break is too weak a word. in case you didn't know. i'm back to crying to sleep every night in the living room. my lips are damn dry and cracked, bleeding too. why ? cos i'm losing more water than i take in. losing because of tears. not taking in enough, because i have no mood to eat or drink. not when i'm with my friends. with everyone, i have to put up a strong front. no choice. you don't reply me. you =.= me. all these small things make me think alot. sorry my fault. everything is my fault. maybe i shouldn't be here anymore.
the longer the wait. the stronger the pain. fuck my life.
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